So, I knew it. One year later and not much has changed. Sure most of what I felt is gone. But, it’s still there. As I lay here I knew this situation would get the best of me and oh, it did. There’s no doubt it did/ still does. I look at these relevant post on here and remember every feeling I remember everything. Sure I’ve grown some but I also changed a lot…and it doesn’t feel for the better. I have no feelings. Eh, I really do have feeling though. I just do not care about anything. My conscious is still there reminding me of everything I do or want to do. I tell myself if I have no feelings …(but obvioisly i do).or attachments I won’t get hurt. Which is true but it’s not the best idea when you even have your guard up around family. I’m trying though. I’m getting better..some days are better then others. I’ve grasped that nothing lasts and guys or people in general do not care they will never feel they owe you a explanation either. I’m still a bit off as of now.